Friday, October 8, 2010
yeah
there's the happy stuff but there's also the bad stuff. but all in all, the good always surpasses the bad. and it's been absolutely amazing. no regrets what so ever. thank YOU so much for YOUR blessings. this has been the most fascinating adventure i've ever been on and i hope that it'll never ever end. HALLELUJAH!!!
Monday, August 2, 2010
it's okayyyyyyy!!!
on the good ship, lollipop
it's a sweet trip to the candy shop
where bon bons play at the sunny beach in peppermint bay
lemonade stands everywhere
cracker jack bands fills the air
and there you are...whoosh!
happy landing on a chocolate bar
it's a sweet trip to the candy shop
where bon bons play at the sunny beach in peppermint bay
lemonade stands everywhere
cracker jack bands fills the air
and there you are...whoosh!
happy landing on a chocolate bar
Thursday, July 29, 2010
squish squash....pumpkin sauce
emotional wreck...blah blah blah....go away dumb feelings...blah blah blah....you're ruining my life...shoo shoo shoo...this is insane!!!
it's sad when you realise that that person close to you whom you thought have changed for the better hadn't really changed after all! what's more upsetting is that THAT person is actually YOURSELF! i thought that it all went away...oh how wrong am i to think so...stupid suchen.
but u'm determined to not let this get in my way. i will make a change and stop this once and for all....ahem...after all, i have the motivation and faith that i need right now. ain't so negative after all...eh?
it's sad when you realise that that person close to you whom you thought have changed for the better hadn't really changed after all! what's more upsetting is that THAT person is actually YOURSELF! i thought that it all went away...oh how wrong am i to think so...stupid suchen.
but u'm determined to not let this get in my way. i will make a change and stop this once and for all....ahem...after all, i have the motivation and faith that i need right now. ain't so negative after all...eh?
Monday, June 7, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
sqwak
holy cupcakes!! i just noticed that i'm the only one from MIB who has never blogged about baking...at all!! or post pictures of my products. maybe my mom's right, i've never really shown my passion for baking. maybe this isn't what i want in life after all.
i don't understand. they say it's not healthy to have pessimistic thoughts all the time. so shouldn't i feel lucky that i'm naive and ignorant about the bad things in life? so yeah, it can be dangerous to be too naive, but i'm not, am i? blah, doesn't matter.
BALLOONS!!! HELIUM BALLOONS!!! they flippin ROCK! though i know that it can be explained with science, that it's all about the density of air and shit, but i personally think that it's a magical thing, haha. having a squeaky voice never fails to amuse people, even yourself. that's why i call it magic.
there's someone that i miss dearly, and another one that i find it hard to get out of my head. pedro, where are you? come home, little monster.
i don't understand. they say it's not healthy to have pessimistic thoughts all the time. so shouldn't i feel lucky that i'm naive and ignorant about the bad things in life? so yeah, it can be dangerous to be too naive, but i'm not, am i? blah, doesn't matter.
BALLOONS!!! HELIUM BALLOONS!!! they flippin ROCK! though i know that it can be explained with science, that it's all about the density of air and shit, but i personally think that it's a magical thing, haha. having a squeaky voice never fails to amuse people, even yourself. that's why i call it magic.
there's someone that i miss dearly, and another one that i find it hard to get out of my head. pedro, where are you? come home, little monster.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
skunk
Have a heart people, friendship is a sacred thing, why try to ruin it? Couldn't believe that anyone would stoop to that level. Tak tahu malu.
Few things happened during these past 2 weeks. Mixed feelings: confused, frustrated, unhappy, happy, calm, optimistic, invincible. Weird, right? Even i feel that it's strange. But through these events i got to understand myself and others better. I've grown more matured and tolerable, but that doesn't neccessarily mean it's a good thing. I still want to be ignorant about the bad things in life, to have someone protect me instead of fending for myself. Sounds selfish but i can't help feeling like this. Wish i were a kid again.
Well i'm 19, the last of my teenage years. Got to grow up somehow. But...still staying young at heart. HAHA!!
R.I.P Pedro
UPDATE!!!! HE'S STILL ALIVE!!!
Few things happened during these past 2 weeks. Mixed feelings: confused, frustrated, unhappy, happy, calm, optimistic, invincible. Weird, right? Even i feel that it's strange. But through these events i got to understand myself and others better. I've grown more matured and tolerable, but that doesn't neccessarily mean it's a good thing. I still want to be ignorant about the bad things in life, to have someone protect me instead of fending for myself. Sounds selfish but i can't help feeling like this. Wish i were a kid again.
Well i'm 19, the last of my teenage years. Got to grow up somehow. But...still staying young at heart. HAHA!!
R.I.P Pedro
UPDATE!!!! HE'S STILL ALIVE!!!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
mocha=heavenly beverage
it's nothing more than just hard work and peserverance on my part, and the constant support of my mom, sister (can say family la) and friends. YAY!! things are starting to brighten up. but my mom la, like trying to jinx me like that. sigh. mom, let's live for the moment and lighten up, huh?
just to clear things up a little. i know it's dumb of me to not study hard for my exams, it's not that i think i'm a smartass but right now i'm feeling oddly happy and contented. so why stress over something NOW when you'll have plenty more chances to do so next semester? plus i'm not exactly sure this is what i plan to do for the rest of my life. i'm still going to try my best but at the same time i wanna take things easy and live life. don't judge me people, i'm just being crazy!!!
i hate perfume.
just to clear things up a little. i know it's dumb of me to not study hard for my exams, it's not that i think i'm a smartass but right now i'm feeling oddly happy and contented. so why stress over something NOW when you'll have plenty more chances to do so next semester? plus i'm not exactly sure this is what i plan to do for the rest of my life. i'm still going to try my best but at the same time i wanna take things easy and live life. don't judge me people, i'm just being crazy!!!
i hate perfume.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
pop one in
feel dreadful and sick
but nothing in life is easy
so hold it in and hear the clock tick
"take it everyday
or be doomed forever" she says
not one to argue with a psycho
okay i said and did it for days
two weeks have passed
i'm perking up a little
those round things rule
now who's up for some skittles?
feel dreadful and sick
but nothing in life is easy
so hold it in and hear the clock tick
"take it everyday
or be doomed forever" she says
not one to argue with a psycho
okay i said and did it for days
two weeks have passed
i'm perking up a little
those round things rule
now who's up for some skittles?
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
ramblings
yay...i'm back. so much for enthusiasm.
is it better to feel numb? or to be emotional? this question scares me.
i found out about something that i wish i hadn't. my fault for being so kepoh.
i can manage a genuine smile! not bad for ms.grumpy
should i? or shouldn't i? i wish i can predict the future.
hold it in, hold it in. all will be well and things will return to normal.
maybe i'm just overreacting. i think too much. but what if i'm right? again, i wish i can see the future.
sleep is the best way to calm one's mind...even if it's just for a short period of time.
moms' should listen to their kids. it's the least they can do to communicate with them better
even if you think you've made the wrong decision, stick by it and make it work. stop only when you think it's not worth the effort.
is it better to feel numb? or to be emotional? this question scares me.
i found out about something that i wish i hadn't. my fault for being so kepoh.
i can manage a genuine smile! not bad for ms.grumpy
should i? or shouldn't i? i wish i can predict the future.
hold it in, hold it in. all will be well and things will return to normal.
maybe i'm just overreacting. i think too much. but what if i'm right? again, i wish i can see the future.
sleep is the best way to calm one's mind...even if it's just for a short period of time.
moms' should listen to their kids. it's the least they can do to communicate with them better
even if you think you've made the wrong decision, stick by it and make it work. stop only when you think it's not worth the effort.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
why do some people try so hard to change me? Am i doing things wrong? I think i'm doing pretty good. Maybe you people should try to change yourself first before you start messing around with other people's lives.
I want to fly a kite. I want to jump off a cliff and into the sea. I want to explore caves and marvel at the wonders of nature. I want do everything dangerous, to take the risk and to know what it feels like to live life. I don't want to live this mundane lifestyle. I'll slowly rot to death here. Happiness comes and goes. You just have to make sure it comes more than it goes. But it's all up to me to make that happen. God only helps those who help themselves. I just need the strength to pull myself out of bed and go out and live it right.
I want to fly a kite. I want to jump off a cliff and into the sea. I want to explore caves and marvel at the wonders of nature. I want do everything dangerous, to take the risk and to know what it feels like to live life. I don't want to live this mundane lifestyle. I'll slowly rot to death here. Happiness comes and goes. You just have to make sure it comes more than it goes. But it's all up to me to make that happen. God only helps those who help themselves. I just need the strength to pull myself out of bed and go out and live it right.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
uhmmm
it's not that i want to be morbid, but i just can't help thinking those thoughts. i don't worry about when the day of my demise arrives, if it's near, i say come do what you came to do. but yet, i don't want to leave this world angry and sad, with full of hatred and regrets. i also don't want to die alone. so i want my last day on earth to be a happy one, with people that i love surrounding me, in flesh or in spirit.
i wasn't created by God to be useless. i deserve the right to be happy and right now i'm given the chance to set things right. i'm not going to let moronic people with their moronic comments get me down. i'll just say "FUCK YOU" and get on with my life. i used to dwell on the past, making myself much more miserable than before. but come to think of it, why should i be so dumb? it hasn't helped me, or anyone. so, yeah, i still see life as a dark, cold place. but somewhere at the end of this tunnel, a hint of light can be seen. and right now, it's getting brighter than before. if there's hope, everything will be alright.
i wasn't created by God to be useless. i deserve the right to be happy and right now i'm given the chance to set things right. i'm not going to let moronic people with their moronic comments get me down. i'll just say "FUCK YOU" and get on with my life. i used to dwell on the past, making myself much more miserable than before. but come to think of it, why should i be so dumb? it hasn't helped me, or anyone. so, yeah, i still see life as a dark, cold place. but somewhere at the end of this tunnel, a hint of light can be seen. and right now, it's getting brighter than before. if there's hope, everything will be alright.
munch on this
you know when you flip the newspapers open and read a devastating news, it could be about a rape victim being murdered, or someone who was killed during a robbery, and you think to yourself, this only happens to other people? well, you're other people to other people too. so i guess that what i'm saying is anything can happen to anyone. don't take things for granted.
on another note, people can be mean. i don't like humans. if i could reincarnate into anything i choose to be, i want to be a particle in the sky. no life. nothing. no pain. no emotions. just...a particle =)
and, i did some thinking. i guess i could forget the sins people made. it just depends on how serious it was. the more serious the situation, the longer it takes for me to forget. forgiveness comes easily to me, so i wouldn't worry about that
on another note, people can be mean. i don't like humans. if i could reincarnate into anything i choose to be, i want to be a particle in the sky. no life. nothing. no pain. no emotions. just...a particle =)
and, i did some thinking. i guess i could forget the sins people made. it just depends on how serious it was. the more serious the situation, the longer it takes for me to forget. forgiveness comes easily to me, so i wouldn't worry about that
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
alert! alert!
you know, being alone is pretty nice. i can't understand why some people hate being alone.
they say, to live a happy life, you have to learn to forgive and forget. i can manage the forgiving part, but never will i be able to forget the sins of people, especially those who have wronged me. don't anyone dare say that it's a waste of precious time in life to hold grudges. if you do, you'll be in my bad books for a very long time, eventhough you're doing that out of good will. yes, i will try my very best to forgive him, but i can never stop disliking him. you want my respect? earn it. i don't give it out freely, even if you're family.
great news!! my bother's coming home! gosh, it's been 3 years since i last saw him. he came home for 2 weeks after being abroad for 2 years. yeah, he hasn't been home for 5 years plus. it's going to be weird to have him home for 7 months. we haven't spoken for 3 years, not even through the phone, though he does correspond with my parents once in a blue moon through e-mail. it's like having a distant relative staying with you. you know you're family, but somehow you feel like he's more of a stranger and there'll be awkwardness. for sure. still, i love my bro =) lemme hear you go "awwwww....."
they say, to live a happy life, you have to learn to forgive and forget. i can manage the forgiving part, but never will i be able to forget the sins of people, especially those who have wronged me. don't anyone dare say that it's a waste of precious time in life to hold grudges. if you do, you'll be in my bad books for a very long time, eventhough you're doing that out of good will. yes, i will try my very best to forgive him, but i can never stop disliking him. you want my respect? earn it. i don't give it out freely, even if you're family.
great news!! my bother's coming home! gosh, it's been 3 years since i last saw him. he came home for 2 weeks after being abroad for 2 years. yeah, he hasn't been home for 5 years plus. it's going to be weird to have him home for 7 months. we haven't spoken for 3 years, not even through the phone, though he does correspond with my parents once in a blue moon through e-mail. it's like having a distant relative staying with you. you know you're family, but somehow you feel like he's more of a stranger and there'll be awkwardness. for sure. still, i love my bro =) lemme hear you go "awwwww....."
Sunday, January 3, 2010
2010, be good to me
happiness comes and goes. you just have to make sure that it comes more than it goes.
new year's eve. went to 1u for the countdown. major disappointment. so i suggested to my parents that we watch it from my aunt's apartment nearby. so we arrived with minutes to spare. i chose the master bedroom, had the best view. it's pretty ironic. i was supposed to watch the fireworks display with my parents, yet i was in the room alone. played "Hallelujah" on my phone, and just as the song started, the first firework was shot up into the sky, lighting it up with such magnificent colours. for the next 6 minutes, i was listening to my favourite song, watching the marvelous fireworks display and reflected on every major event that happened in 2009, the worst year of my life. seriously. i'm so glad that it's over. a fresh start to a new year.
i'm being very optimistic about the year 2010. please don't disappoint me. going through 2009 was terrible enough. oh, bring me the joy i need to keep me motivated in life!! truffles!! i need truffles!!
man, danny elfman is a musical genius!
new year's eve. went to 1u for the countdown. major disappointment. so i suggested to my parents that we watch it from my aunt's apartment nearby. so we arrived with minutes to spare. i chose the master bedroom, had the best view. it's pretty ironic. i was supposed to watch the fireworks display with my parents, yet i was in the room alone. played "Hallelujah" on my phone, and just as the song started, the first firework was shot up into the sky, lighting it up with such magnificent colours. for the next 6 minutes, i was listening to my favourite song, watching the marvelous fireworks display and reflected on every major event that happened in 2009, the worst year of my life. seriously. i'm so glad that it's over. a fresh start to a new year.
i'm being very optimistic about the year 2010. please don't disappoint me. going through 2009 was terrible enough. oh, bring me the joy i need to keep me motivated in life!! truffles!! i need truffles!!
man, danny elfman is a musical genius!
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