Confucius say, you go to jail, bad boy. HAHA!!! this cracks me up everytime i hear it.
GRR!!! now my lecturers know me as 'the one with the tattoo'. honestly, i love what i'm studying now. i think that the thing that happened earlier this year may be a blessing in disguise. if it wasn't for that, i would still be stuck studying in taylor's, living a life full of disappointments and confusions, feeling bad for myself. if it wasn't for that, i wouldn't have found the faith i needed in life . never would i have thought that a drawing of a guardian angel would give me the strength to keep going. and the most amazing thing happened one early morning that practically changed me:
it was around 7 a.m, the sun was just beginning to rise and the sky looked exactly like those ancient paintings you'd be able to see on the ceilings of churches and old building, murals, those with little baby angels, or cupids, resting on clouds. and i saw, honestly, i'm not lying, i saw this cloud in the shape of an angel with beautiful wings on it's back. that was the moment when i told myself, snap out of it suchen. how can you waste your life away, cooped up in you room? your life isn't miserable.
and that is the reason why i had a tattoo of a guardian angel done on my arm. why my arm? some people may think, oh, she's just trying to show of, making herself look hardcore. well, those people don't know shit! i have my own reasons. say what you want. if it weren't for this tattoo, i think i'll relapse. everytime i'm upset about something or someone's giving me a hard time, i'll just take a look at the angel, and i'll remember that God loves me, my angel is here to protect me, i have everything going for me, what's there to be upset about?
gosh, i sound really religious. but i think that someone like me who has a disturbed mind should have a religion to keep me from straying and on the right path. it worked for my brother, maybe it'll work for me too. after all, i'm dark enough to be labelled as a goth by a shrink!!!!!!
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