i knew i shouldn't have had that cup of coffee. coffee causes insomnia, lack of sleep causes suchen to wake up extremely late the next day, all grumpy and irritated. gosh, it's gonna be a bad day tomorrow.
ok, major problem. since i dropped out of college 4 months ago, i think it's high time that i start getting off my fat, lazy ass and do something with my life. Well, i'm malaysian, and my parents aren't as open minded as they say they are, so going for a long vacation is totally out of the question. so, the only thing i CAN do with my sad, miserable life right now is to sign up for another darn course. after spending 11 years in school (not counting my kindergarten years), i can't believe i have to do the whole crazy routine again so soon: getting up early, study for exams, TAKING the exams and shyte. i thought i could at least get a year off. oh well. and the worse thing is, i gotta decide on which course to take immediately because the next intake either in july or august. blasted choices.
ok, so after 2 tormenting months of studying mass comm, i'm pretty sure i'm not cut out for that, i'm an introvert after all. so, i guess it's back to F&B. can't become a vet, not because i'm not smart enough, it's because i can't stand seeing REAL blood. can't become a teacher, again not because i'm not smart enough, i have a short temper and low tolerance for slow learners. if you can't understand something after the first explanation, i'm ready to smack you across the head.
so now it's down to these two: baking or culinary arts? Baking is taught at MIB, culinary...guess it's back to taylor's. at least for culinary, i'm able to learn both: whipping up amazing french cuisine and still do some baking. but if i study baking, i would have to work solely in the baking industry. one more thing, i'm kinda worried about going back to taylor's after my sudden "disappearance" from class since feb. what am i gonna use as an excuse if i meet any of my previous course mates? um, sorry, but i just couldn't stand spending another sec with you guys because you're such stuck ups? if i want to make movies, heck, i can do it even without a degree. plus, i have two library books with me that were due months ago.
ok, let me make this clear. i know working in the F&B industry doesn't sound like an achievement, not like being a doctor, or a lawyer and what not. but depending from what i hear from these doctor-wannabes, they're not doing it because it's their passion to save lives, they're doing it for the money and reputation. like, OMG! now THAT'S a sad life. everyone knows that money doesn't bring you happiness, unless you're a fan of 'The Pursuit of Happyness'. so i'm doing this because i've always known i wanted to do this since i was in primary school. i've always wanted to open my very own cafe. i love food. i love working with my hands. i'm no studious person. i know i won't be able to earn alot unless i become the executive chef of a five star restaurant or hotel. but, as long as it pays my bills and still be enough for me to lead a comfortable life, then i'm happy, since i'm doing what i enjoy. so, smirk and laugh all you want, suckas, cuz this is my life!
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